an intended writer's true confessions
Today while reading a prologue to a novel by some other writer, I realized that my Akansha (Akki) is dying.
Now, who is Akansha? you may ask!!
Well, Akki was born on my laptop a few months ago.
I hoped that she will see the light of the day in a hard cover book which some day will catch the fancy of Ekta Kapoor (not Karan Johar, for him I have a separate idea, of his taste bubbling in my mind), who will then buy its rights for a movie and make me more famous (I will already have become famous by this book).
And then I will write serials for her, besides writing more novels. Thus I will become independent in earnings and thoughts.
But, my Akki is bleeding words. Since last 10-12 days, I have not added a single alphabet to her life.
I know you do not care for her. You will not and you can not because you do not know her.
To introduce her, I will try to detach my emotions from my feelings.
Akansha Avasthi, Akki in short, is an exaggerated extended version of me. Just like me, who even after spending the recent ten years of my life in NCR, Chandigarh and now in Mumbai, is still a small town girl- at heart, mind and tongue. (More of it, I have deleted at the time of editing because I want you to read the novel, if and when it comes)
When I started, every character was clearly etched in my mind. All the twists and turns of her life were pre-decided. The story was like a picture frame, solid and sturdy, to which I just had to apply the words to give it the final look and shape.
But now, after almost three-four months, I feel that the story has somewhere lost its direction, the characters are not coming to life, the way I had wanted them to. My akki
seems lost and confused.
I really do not want it to suffer from the quarter-life crisis!!
For the book, it definitely is!!
or is their any term to indicate shorter-time-span crisis, for I am not sure if it actually is close to a quarter even.
For my life!!! I am sure I do not intend to live till close to hundred, till one hundred twenty!!!!
A definite NO!!!
But a mid-life crisis makes it sound all the more depressing!!!!
Now, who is Akansha? you may ask!!
Well, Akki was born on my laptop a few months ago.
I hoped that she will see the light of the day in a hard cover book which some day will catch the fancy of Ekta Kapoor (not Karan Johar, for him I have a separate idea, of his taste bubbling in my mind), who will then buy its rights for a movie and make me more famous (I will already have become famous by this book).
And then I will write serials for her, besides writing more novels. Thus I will become independent in earnings and thoughts.
But, my Akki is bleeding words. Since last 10-12 days, I have not added a single alphabet to her life.
I know you do not care for her. You will not and you can not because you do not know her.
To introduce her, I will try to detach my emotions from my feelings.
Akansha Avasthi, Akki in short, is an exaggerated extended version of me. Just like me, who even after spending the recent ten years of my life in NCR, Chandigarh and now in Mumbai, is still a small town girl- at heart, mind and tongue. (More of it, I have deleted at the time of editing because I want you to read the novel, if and when it comes)
When I started, every character was clearly etched in my mind. All the twists and turns of her life were pre-decided. The story was like a picture frame, solid and sturdy, to which I just had to apply the words to give it the final look and shape.
But now, after almost three-four months, I feel that the story has somewhere lost its direction, the characters are not coming to life, the way I had wanted them to. My akki
seems lost and confused.
I really do not want it to suffer from the quarter-life crisis!!
For the book, it definitely is!!
or is their any term to indicate shorter-time-span crisis, for I am not sure if it actually is close to a quarter even.
For my life!!! I am sure I do not intend to live till close to hundred, till one hundred twenty!!!!
A definite NO!!!
But a mid-life crisis makes it sound all the more depressing!!!!
Comments
Fantastic. Efforts are worth appreciating.
Here's wishing to good luck and as the French says "Au Revour" i.e. best of health, wealth, peace and prosperity.
Warm regards to Ankur and lots of love to Dear Jiya.
Gopal
Appreciation is one such thing that will help me to keep my akki survive