me and my forgetfulness
Today my cousin brother came for a visit with his family. While talking with them I realised one thing. I have become too forgetful. I could not remember many details or small things. Things as small as the name of the chocolate which Jiya likes or one of Ankur’s friend’s name, or the name of the company which he had earlier worked at.
I hope it’s my pregnancy hormones which have the role to play in this confusion. And I hope that it is not caused by my current complete lack of interaction with the outside world, or this circumstantial inactivity of my brain and body.
I so much hope that after four-five months from today, when I am able to resume my normal usual life. Physically and mentally I am able to start, at least, from where I left.
I am all the more terrified because losing control over my mind is one of my worst two nightmares. I mean recurring ones.
The other one is that my hard earned CA degree has become invalid for some reason. I know this, but have kept it at the back of my mind in the flow of my household responsibilities. But once I decide to become active on professional front, I am mandatorily required to pass few exams. The confusion, nervousness and the palpitations in my dreams become so real that many a times after waking up I am tempted to recheck the authenticity of the paper declaring my degree. Over time, with such recurring frequency of this dream, I am sure, the doubt has become so sound that if I am passed through a lie detector test aka sach ka samna, I will certainly fail it.
Well, as the situation stands today, I can brush the fears about my profession under the carpet for another two three years. Till then I need to worry about only my forgetfulness.
Hope I don’t become the ‘who usko kya kahte hain types’ for forever.
I hope it’s my pregnancy hormones which have the role to play in this confusion. And I hope that it is not caused by my current complete lack of interaction with the outside world, or this circumstantial inactivity of my brain and body.
I so much hope that after four-five months from today, when I am able to resume my normal usual life. Physically and mentally I am able to start, at least, from where I left.
I am all the more terrified because losing control over my mind is one of my worst two nightmares. I mean recurring ones.
The other one is that my hard earned CA degree has become invalid for some reason. I know this, but have kept it at the back of my mind in the flow of my household responsibilities. But once I decide to become active on professional front, I am mandatorily required to pass few exams. The confusion, nervousness and the palpitations in my dreams become so real that many a times after waking up I am tempted to recheck the authenticity of the paper declaring my degree. Over time, with such recurring frequency of this dream, I am sure, the doubt has become so sound that if I am passed through a lie detector test aka sach ka samna, I will certainly fail it.
Well, as the situation stands today, I can brush the fears about my profession under the carpet for another two three years. Till then I need to worry about only my forgetfulness.
Hope I don’t become the ‘who usko kya kahte hain types’ for forever.
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