a new lesson learnt

The wheel of karma has turned its full circle.

And at the centre of it, i am standing, worried, hoping / praying and sometimes repenting for not have done anything that time.

Now its too late....almost twenty years late (give or take one or two years), and the person for whom i did not do anything, whom i want to go and say sorry to, must also be grown up now....probably having a baby of her own now.....must have forgotten everything too....but the scars must have remained......i hope being at the receiving end of bullying once....she did not turn into a bully herself.

After all, i managed not to become one...though i myself was also their target sometimes. Though the difference is i chose not to react, knowing that just a subtle hint to the right person at the school would stop it forever....but doing that would have made the situation messy....i hope i did fine by just ignoring them.

But age is also a factor. I was in the VIII or IX class at that time, she was just in one of the primary classes.

Her fault......just that....that our bus had to take a slight detour to pick her up from her stop....which meant that all of us in the bus had a slight time disadvantage than before....

Their defence in being so rude, not letting her have any place to sit, asking stupid questions to her which to us were funny......she will stop coming by bus.

And, just not me, no one in the bus, cared to stand against them. She was a source of alleged harmless entertainment for them. But was it really harmless??

Today my three year old has gone in the school bus alone, i mean without his sister, who takes real good care of him, makes him sit with her. They share the window seat turnwise, she drops him to his class, which is a little far from the bus parking, soothes his nerves and makes him comfortable in the class before going to her own class.

And my inactions of the past came to haunt me....seeing my little one in a similar scenario....now i can feel that pain, she must have felt at that time.